Thoughts....

The following is just random thoughts of mine from the past week or so...
Missing the kids after they left...A little after 24 hours we learned of a tragic and sudden death in the family of someone far to young to leave this world and especially the way he did...This passing  would bring home the kids again the following weekend..I was so glad to see them again yet it was sad....Many tears were shared and the mood was defiantly blue..We left the little ones with Grandma and Grandpa while the rest of us went to the celebration of life services and reception...and while it was one of the saddest days I enjoyed spending time with people I have not seen in a long while...It was good to see my big kids make connections with certain people whom I feared were lost forever due to things that happened in the past... As soon as we said our good-byes and walked out of the church the only thing I wanted was to go to Grandma's and get my little ones and hold onto them never letting go!  Life is precious and short..I would love to know that I have done everything I have ever wanted to and always let those I love dearly know that...if anything should ever happen to me unexpectedly I would hope that each and every person I love knows without a doubt that I do love them dearly....As sad as I was this last week I would like to think that God had a hand in this and he was trying to send a message to those of us left behind..why he choose the one he did and the way he did I will never even pretend to begin to understand it but as we all know God works in mysterious ways and for whatever reason he choose this special person to leave us early....you will always be missed....